I write a lot about mental health and darkness. Sometimes I wonder if it's "too much" for an audience. Would appreciate thoughts on both the craft AND whether this crosses any lines.
Inventory
I am running low on myself.
The cabinet where I keep
the parts of me that function
has dust on every shelf.
I open jars labeled ENERGY,
MOTIVATION, WILL TO RISE -
all empty, lids still on,
as if they've never been opened.
Perhaps they haven't.
Perhaps I came with empty jars
and everyone else got theirs pre-filled
and I have spent my whole life
pretending to pour from nothing.
The cabinet door doesn't close right.
One hinge is coming loose.
I should fix it
but the tools are in a drawer
I no longer open.
Is this too bleak? I don't want to trigger anyone but this is genuinely how it feels sometimes and I think there's value in naming it.
